i am not happy! argh!! cant seem to get happy at all...... i cant get the courage to talk however i want to ppl i luv... either i talk things i dun ever talk abt, or be so stupid and make a fool outa myself... mebe thats why im so useless... unable to say words deep in my heart to ppl i luv........ haixxxx
even though its the holidays, i can onli be happy for a day.. that exams are over...... holidays... everyone work.... i cant find work.... and no one go out...... JC ppl all studying..... haix...... sianx ah..... i dun wanna stay at home all day and yet i dun have money to go out play.... ARGHHH
wat i want is not advice, not ppl bothering me every single day like i got no life but them, not ppl who bug me abt their lives every single day, not ppl who expect me to be there 24/7, not ppl who tink im so rich as to go out every single day and play, not ppl who wants me to give tons and billions of advice and not take any. but juz a plain listening ear..... izit juz so hard to get wat i expect?
i will be there for u if u juz stop bothering me. the more u expect me to do something, the more u should expect i wont! think u're so impt huh! that u can take up the whole of my life! well hear this! I HAVE MY OWN LIFE TOO! I can choose who to hang out with! i got so many grps of frenz and u want me to go out wif u every single day?! well go and get someone else! if u expected me to be this kind of person, WELL HELL NO! my sec 1-2 frenz, my sec3-4 frenz, my darling camp frenz, my OG frenz, my class, not forgetting my pri sch frenz. well ok, so i dont have enuf time to hang out wif my camp frenz. so how! at least they wont forget abt our frenship like it was some passing shooting star. and my secondary sch frenz treasure the frenship so well.
im not talking abt someone... juz that putting a u as a subject is a good thing to vend on... i juz hope im not searching for someone who can understand me well enuf to not get on my nerves... coz thats impossible........ how is it that there is someone who thinks that we are best of frenz when u so dont understand me! GIVE ME MY FREEDOM BACK!
God forbid me to stop talking abt such stuff... im juz vending my frustrations........
wakaka im talking too much....... of coz i hope for some people to ask me out... but... those who i wanna go out with deep in my heart, nv ask me out... am i so.. insignificant? haix...... well.... not everyone have time in their life for me.... juz as i dont have time for everyone.. i'll juz take it in my stride... but i reali hope for a Titans outing.... to be able to see u again... will be the best....

